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2008-02-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

As he faced the sun he cast no shadow

2008-02-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

Somehow I found myself returning to Corduroy two more times after my first visit last Saturday. It's like my new starbucks, except maybe they don't offer as large a variety of coffee as SB.... Actually it's also because it's really near my camp so it's more convenient for me to hang out there.

I also realized that the Pacific Coffee Company at Vivo also has a really nice outdoor area (I believe it's bigger than the indoor area), where you can chill by the bay and gaze into nothingness. But then again PCC is a pretty bad name for a coffeehouse... it's like a really bad joke come true. Like say I open a restaurant called WTF and it does well and I start to expand it and now there are a lot of WTF's around.

So yesterday I was driving peacefully down Harbourfront when all of a sudden an SBS bus driver decides to aggressively swerve into my lane 5m in front of me... And mind you I was going at like 80 so I had to jam my breaks pretty hard to avoid a collision with this fucker's massive vehicle. And then today I had to jam break at another junction again because some ah beng in a white lancer decided to beat the red light and hope I break so that I don't smash into his vehicle at 100 and kill him and his girlfriend. Not that killing them would be a loss to society la but it's a bit troublesome to go through the aftermath of it and explain to the TP that it really wasn't my fault that they decided to give a license to someone with shit for brains.

Ok sorry about the angst, I'm just emo cause I have to book in in 6 hours :(

Weekends in camp suck... For now all I can look forward to is brekkie at the village on Sunday.

2008-01-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh I spent half my weekend shopping but only got a pair of River Island jeans cause I either couldn't really decide if I really wanted to wear the other stuff I picked or I was put off by the longish Mambo Night like queues at the changing room or cashiers.

And then again I'm not even sure if I like the pair of RI jeans much enough to part with half of my pathetic army salary. But then again it's technically not really part of my army salary since I usually use up my salary within like 10 days of receiving it hmmmmmmm..... But I guess I was pressured by Q to get it cause he thought the other pair of Levi's jeans I wanted was too nice so he didn't want me to buy it and look so nice next to him.

Moving on to the other things I did this weekend, yesterday I went to chill at Corduroy Cafe at Vivocity.... It was awesome!!! It was nice having my usual afternoon ice blended caffiene dose in the comfort of the indoor aircon, while looking out at the not-that-great-but-still-decent-for-singapore view of the scorching bay under the hothothot afternoon sun... And I liked the pseudo-colonial decor of the place. The reason why I would describe it as pseudo-colonial is because it still retains a slightly modern touch... WHICH IS DAMN SEXY. You'd have to see it to know what I'm talking about. I'd definitely go down again some time soon, it's a great place to relax over the weekend.

In other news, we got the shock of our lifes today when all of a sudden at the end of the youth service Pastor said they were going to take photos of everyone cause most of the church was wearing the 40 DOC polo t-shirt and they chose to take the photo from the back of the hall where we were and we weren't wearing them because we didn't want to buy last week!!! It was quite GG, I feel so guilty for messing D's Church's big youth family photo up by wearing something that is strikingly different from everyone else and being right at the front! Hmmmm but I find the TTB t-shirt quite nice, I might buy it if they're still selling it next week.

OK.... Have a great last complete week of the chinese lunar calender people!

2008-01-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad the week is almost over. It's been hard juggling my normal everyday duties while concurrently assisting my bosses in running a course throughout the week.

And I suck at multi-tasking, so I end up making stupid careless mistakes which take up more time to rectify and its like an endless cycle of new work coming in, taking my mind off what I'm currently working on and distracting me even more. I think it would help if I was a little more organised... I remember when I was a clerk in my previous unit I had this notebook to jot down all the little jobs that had to be done and I'd make sure they're all complete on time and track their progress with my little notebook. But even though I bought myself a notebook for this new job, I don't seem to be able to use it. I wonder why....

Anyways, I think the clothes in topman are really bad this season. Like most of the shirts resemble farmer's clothes. And also wearing topman stuff would mean that I would see 15 other people wearing the same thing when I go out, which pisses me off. And I can't seem to be able to find time to go down to the malls and troll through every shop properly at all. Shopping is damn troublesome.

2008-01-14T00:05:00.001+08:00

mmmm very drama

2008-01-11T18:35:00.000+08:00

bang bang.
that awful sound,
my baby shot me down.

2008-01-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

i worked 12 hours today

i hate booking out at 8pm

i'm probably going to book out as late tomorrow

i saw philbert today, he might be a pilot soon

next week must end quickly

2008-01-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

OH SHIT.

I'm so going to die over the next 3 days. I have to do like 5 intense days of work over the next 3, because of my stupid illness. And I'm already forfeiting 1 day of MC, which my doctor gave me for tomorrow but I know I cannot take or I would suffer in an even more excruciating manner on Thursday and Friday :(

And I hate my anti-biotics, they're so messed up. They cause gastric and they give me insomnia wtf!!!

But OK la, I spent my waking hours over the last 2 days reading about English History, especially that of the Tudor Dynasty and the House of Windsor. It was all very fascinating... I wish I could read more but I have to prepare for work and sleep early tonight. But at least now I know so many more members of the English Royalty and how their Monarchy has evolved to this day.

And it was also interesting to read about the history of the Tomb of the Unknown Warrior in Westminster Abbey. Like how the Unknown Warrior was selected, how it was given a grand burial ceremony in the Abbey, and that it was laid to rest in the same place as most of the English Monarchs and their Consorts. Oh and also that his tombstone is the only tombstone in the entire Abbey on which it is forbidden to walk. Reading all about it sort of makes one want to give up one's life for his Nation in a similarly selfless manner, to be accorded that amount of glory. So it kinda made me wonder if this was all a ruse to arouse feelings of nationalism and martyrdom in the UK. Haha, oh shit I'm being damn stupid.

But I found the words inscripted on the sides of his marble tombstone quite cool:

THE LORD KNOWETH THEM THAT ARE HIS
GREATER LOVE HATH NO MAN THAN THIS
UNKNOWN AND YET WELL KNOWN, DYING AND BEHOLD WE LIVE
IN CHRIST SHALL ALL BE MADE ALIVE

Don't we all feel like dying for our countries now?

Ok I need to go and sleep. Bloody hell, I can't wait for 2008 to be over.

2008-01-07T15:20:00.000+08:00

I'm sick again :(

And its really a bad time to fall ill, there are so many things I need to do at work these 2 weeks! I can't believe I'm actually disappointed that I'm ill though, awhile ago I would have been happy to get a 3 day MC... I guess it's all a matter of integrity, I hate to inconvenience my colleagues.

un-connected events sorry

2008-01-06T00:28:00.001+08:00

are you enjoying the first weekend of the new year?

I want to go to the national museum soon. I haven't been there since its makeover, and I heard its pretty nice now. Actually I liked it even before the renovation, it was a nice place to go and learn about random, interesting things. And I generally like colonial architecture, theres something about the grandeur and the richness of colonial buildings which makes them very appealing.

Last week I had breakfast with a friend at the Delifrance at Holland V. I've only been there once before that and I'm not really a Delifrance fan but I have to say there's a really a good reason why the cafe is so empty at Holland V... I don't know if this occurance is just an instance or if it's a wide-spread thing but the breakfast is just bad. I was served better pastry for breakfast on a damn airplane, the coffee was so strong it was like 6 shots of espresso poured into 1 coffee cup and then served, and the waffles were frighteningly similar to the instant waffles one can get from any supermarket. It was horrible. When I went to the same Delifrance for breakfast almost 3 years ago before the first Chem SPA of my A levels it wasn't so bad! In fact I think I enjoyed it. I wonder what happened.... But I hope what happened to me was more of an exception than a norm la.. Maybe the chef was having a bad day or something. Haha

I like Guiness draught. Cheers

2008-01-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

No! You're not at the wrong blog...

I've changed my template! I made the font size larger so that its easier to read now and the background isn't so black anymore so its not such a bleak affair reading this blog. But of course, that is not to say I intended my old background to be emo la, it was more like a lack of effort on my part to find a nice template.. Oh and not to mention that old background was quite bengish because the person who designed that template and put it on the blog template site was an Ah Lian. So I'm quite pleased that this site no longer looks like some Ah Beng Diary. But its all well now, except maybe this blog looks too bright now and it might take a little bit of getting used to.

Anyway, Happy New Year to everybody!
I hope 2008 pasts really quickly, then I can ORD and get on with my life.. And I achieved my New Year Resolution 20 hours after making it, how stupid. Now I have to think of a new goal to work towards for the rest of the year....

And now, its time to brace myself for yet another year of shit before I'm free again!

2007-12-09T02:39:00.000+08:00

1am on sunday morning

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shaun - slaves of singapore says:
zoukout must be damn boring tonight... cause you are not there

Education is dangerous: The Mafia only kills someone if they knew too much..... says:
fuck u

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we all love zh!

2007-11-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

Time seems to pass more slowly now though.. It used to go by pretty fast when I first came in, but now that I'm nearing the mid term of my service it seems to have slowed down a lot. I won't say that life has improved or gotten worst, but at least I'm used to the army now. I know what to expect and how to get through each day.

My new posting is definitely more welcome than the previous one. Apart from the absense of regimentation, my colleagues here are also better educated so I find it easier to communicate with them. My job is also very fulfilling. I think its wonderful that I get this chance to work with people who are less privileged. It's been a real eye opener and I'm sure it'll stay this way till the end. I have a lot to learn from this new unit and I hope there will be a positive change in the way I view the world by the end of my service.

But no matter where you are in the SAF, as long as you're an NSF its gonna suck. I know I shouldn't be complaining here so I won't. But there's more to my job than meets the eye.

Apart from boring army matters, I've also gotten my driving license. Actually that's not such a good thing, driving is a pretty heavy responsibility. I used to just knock out in my parents' cars when I was younger not knowing that the person behind the wheel actually has to be alert all the time and possess the skills and judgement to maneuver through the local traffic. Anyways it was fun ridin and rollin with the gang on friday night. Hahahahaha.

Mambo tomorrow. Super crowded. But who cares, I cant go for another month.

464 days to ORD.

I know I can do it, this is an easier race than the A levels. Its just longer and more full of shit.

2007-11-06T23:09:00.000+08:00

gosh i havent blogged for so long

2007-09-27T23:34:00.000+08:00

i've been following the Myanmar protests quite closely and i'm very saddened by the recent developments... the use of violence as a means to disperse the crowds is really un-called for. its a bloody peaceful protest, why the hell must they use tear gas and guns and batons wtf.

i think its a very immature way to handle the situation. negotiations should be made with the people, see what they want first. i think the root cause of the problem was the rise in fuel prices, and then deep inside the people were already regarding the junta with much resent. the only reason why it has been so peaceful till now is cause of the bloody fear which the government strikes in the hearts of the helpless citizens. so until now there wasnt any real reason for the citizens to rebel cause they could still live with it.

but i mean like now you fucking double the price of fuel and expect people who earn so little to live with it? seriously wtf.

sometimes i really wonder why the world is like that and why all these people have to suffer. and i really feel sorry for them and i wish them all the best in their quest for democracy and i hope that one day they will be able to see democracy in their nation for themselves.

i hope the UN helps, and i hope the violence stops :(

pray for them

2007-09-18T23:00:00.001+08:00

Wow a 201st post! I never thought this blog would come so far... I was browsing through the archives and I realized that I could actually watch myself grow and mature through all the posts over the last few years! Thats not to say I'm very mature now la but still.... lol. I actually don't want grow up :(

So lets talk about how all the guys in combat vocations have disappeared.. Everytime I drive past the ferry terminal on my way home from Helldon, I'll look at the distant shores of the Magical Island of Dreams and remember su who is 5km away pumping recruits who are 1 year older than us. But he'll be confined till the end of the month with his little recruits. And then theres Sheng, who disappeared on a 2 month trip to cheong sua in his tank in taiwan. I remember him too, every single time I log onto BNet to realize that our clan has been disbanded because he didn't renew the chieftain's login before he left. And theres GY, who's in combat but is somehow staying out to plague BNet with his proness. I remember GY everytime i get on BNet too.

Yeah ok sorry I just decided to blog about something random. And I really hope I get that transfer. Good night.

2007-08-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

Proud parents of a 3SG:

shiet i have more photos but its on my razr which is like not usable now cause my sim card is in my non-camera phone so :(

but attending the aslc graduation was really fun, because i went as a civilian. the rank-holders (even the regulars) treat u so differently when u are a civilian, because when u are a civilian u have a voice and u cant be forced to follow orders just because they are orders. it was very amusing..... when i was a civilian and i went for military functions i took all these for granted, but now i can see the difference.

so when i went home i felt sad. one of the things that bothers me about servicenational is that your social status drops the moment you surrender your pink ic. we arent accorded the same amount the respect as we used to have been given as civilians. and i dont see a reason for this, how does this make the ymra function better? i dont see why they have to take away my dignity. i dont know if i should have just said that.

it also bothers me that i actually have to ask myself if i should or shouldnt have said that... if you get my drift.... lol wtf am i saying! i think im just whining, no point talking about change if you cant do anything about it right. goodnight

2007-08-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

awww <3 remember how happy we were when we were young? i remember the exact circumstances in which this photo was taken. qing was showing su how his new 3310 had a cool game called snake2 which totally ownz snake1 on 8250 so we should all get 3310 and maybe one day in 2007 we could also use 3310's as like bricks and maybe like sledge hammers....

ok that wasnt what really happened. it was actually qing's birthday on 19 dec 05 and we somehow ended up at su's place but what i really want people to see from this photo is how cute and innocent the young qing was: no piercing, no game, but still the classic emo specs and the cool shortness :)

and the scary thing is that this photo was taken less than 2 years ago although it felt much longer... it makes me wonder how long ORD will take to come :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

additional announcement:
su's popping on thursday who wants to come? i have a PLC carpark label and infinite tickets so if u wanna go contact me!!!! so far qing and i are going and su's parents arent in singapore or something so it wont be very weird or intrusive on the emotional moment of the elder su's putting on the no-pride 3 arrows/ chevrons/ mark of ocs-rejects (ok sorry) on su's sleeve because such a thing will not happen. i will nevertheless be proud of su because he went through sispec delta.

2007-08-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

so heres a random update of what i've been doing up till now! and for a change ill do it in pictures, so i dont have to type cause i'm starting to become lazy and stupid.

(ok la not really..... i just found these photos in my phone so i thought i should put them here as memories)

18 Aug

absolut bling!

a random decision to drop by newton bar for an all night risk/ movie marathon! it was a super fun night full of funny random occurances that ill remember for quite some time lol :D

4 AUG

ACS barker scouts gangshow! Going back to catch up with the rest of the alumni and juniors was damn amazing. It was great seeing everyone again. And since I hardly go back to barker I went all the way to the clocktower just to pay dear Oldham a visit. I like this sculpture cause of the words on its plate:

Bishop Oldam so lived his days that others would have tomorrows.
We who are heirs of this great Institution must also surely play our part.
The past we inherit, The present we create
but to those who hope, work and play
The Best Is Yet To Be

-T. W Hinch, Principal, ACS

So now we know where those words printed at the top of the acjc classroom block came from! Haha its actually very meaningful, i should try and remember these words as i go about in the course of my daily life and perhaps i'd be able to live a more fulfilling ns life?

Random date in late july

Qing and I were starbucks-ing at paragon when suddenly:

whatuf

whatuf X 2

whatuf whatuf whatuf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah... this group of people appeared in star wars costumes and they actually went to the counter to buy coffee so that was pretty hilarious lol!

Ok more updates soon!!!

ARGH THE FORMATTING FOR THIS ENTIRE POST IS SCREWED UP CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY ITS LIKE THAT? I DIDNT MEAN FOR ALL THE WORDS TO STICK TOGETHER AND BE SO HARD TO READ BUT WTF IT TURNED OUT LIKE THAT WTF. maybe its my blog skin, i should change my blog skin i've been meaning to do so for a long time...

2007-08-11T03:05:00.000+08:00

wow time really really flies, su is coming back already. 3 weeks just flew by so fast, i hope its like that all the time!!! anyways we're all quite proud of you su, you're one of the only few fighting fit personnel left among all of us.... hahahaha

oh shit, 4 more hours to my book in :( :( :(

SLEEP
and su's plane will land even before i book out how sad

2007-07-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

so i've got half an hour of my birthday left to go....

i guess im happy la, while army has lowered my standards of what to expect it still was a meaningful and fulfilling day so thank you for today if you were part of it.

1 more birthday holding 11B ENDURE!!!!!!!!

2007-07-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

i just read auguries of innocence by william blake. such a familiar poem, every barker boy can relate to the starting verses :

To see a world in a grain of sand
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
And eternity in an hour.

i love this poem so much because it celebrates youth, and innocence, and purity. it represents everything we've lost to the organisation. blake is so cool because the general theme of most of his work revolves around stuff like these, and also his dissatisfaction at the moral state of society. so these are all things that i believe in also and i can really relate to him and i think thats cool.

ok, i would elaborate more but like im really tired i need to sleep now lol SOMEBODY GET ME OUT OF HERE.

2007-07-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

:(

i wish you guys were around for me to share moments like these with. i mean like, theres so many newbs in the world to own before ord, i cant possibly do it alone right?! its like an uphill task, pwning these newbs all by myself. i feel so lonely and powerless, fighting against this mad rush of newbs suddenly bursting in my direction the moment i create a game on BNet. i feel like im the only pro left on BNet now that all of you are in army :(

and like since xavier is like a newb like the rest of the newbs in the world it wont make a difference after he OOTs. i need someone like su or wong or chang or manav or whatever :(

ok la im not that serious about dota la hahaha... army has made me realize that life is more than playing computer games and owning noobs on bnet. life is about spending your time well and being a blessing to others and doing good things and being the person that god wanted you to be.

but its so hard to be like that in the army. i need god to empower me, i need god to give me strength to be different and do things right for once....

HOW TO BE A CLERK 101

2007-07-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

HOW TO BE A CLERK IN THIS ORGANISATION 101

1) Don't let anyone know what you are doing

2) Act blur in all situations

3) Don't stay in your office if your officer is around

4) Intimidate your colleagues (especially if you are the new guy), so that they wont dare to throw shit at you out of fear.

5) Lunch time is an entitlement, not a privilege. You are given 60mins for lunch, TAKE ALL OF IT, IT IS YOUR RIGHT.

er lol im damn sick of this. actually i hate to be like this but its damn hard to be nice in the army cause people just take advantage of you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you and abuse you.

2007-06-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

Haha the june holidays are over. I remember last year at this time, the A levels were speeding right ahead towards us. It seemed only just awhile ago that I was worrying about the impending prelim exams and the big monster behind it, the actual A level exams.

I remember the days of mugging late into the night in school like it was yesterday. I remember comparing Math mock paper answers with Chang in the void deck at 10pm, and also the long Physics discussions with Zhenghao. And how the auntie at the snack stall remembered exactly how I liked my coffee (thick and creamy, "nong nong" as she would call it lol). I remember the secret balcony up at the top level of Oldham Wing where I could retreat to mug quietly if I got sick of the library, hub, canteen, void deck or lt3. I remember the Venti Starbucks Christmas Blend with warm milk that I would take back to school from the Holland V Starbucks almost every day. I remember the good times and the fellowship and the encouragement that we all gave one another towards the end.

All these are lost now. The army is a terribly depressing and un-motivating place to work in. Everyday we follow the same fucking routine and the only variation we get is the variety of sai gang which we have to do which is seemingly infinite and who's scope is endless. The people I meet here are mostly selfish and unkind bastards who only care about their own welfare, and saving their own asses when shit happens. Unit life truly sucks.

But lifes like that ORD is coming soon and God gave me an un-expected encouragement gift 3 days ago which I am very excited about and I really thank him for his grace in this matter.

Ok heres more pics of the days leading up to November 17:

over here is a 2 S paper student who's wasting his life away to stupid card games 1 month before the A levels start ( little did he know that for 2 years from jan07 he'd have all the time in the world to waste his life away)

another shot of the dumbass, this time joined by another dumbass looking over his shoulder admiring how dumb the stupid card game truly is.

a younger johnny boy putting all his effort into studying hard for the A levels. GOOD JOB JOHNNY SHOW THE 2 S PAPER FAGGOT WHAT YOU'RE MADE OF GOGOGO

ok sorry but all these random ACJC nostalgia is just rushing back to me today I dont know why. Must be cause of the emo-ness I've acquired from the army.

early weekend!

2007-06-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

my weekend starts tomorrow YESSS! on leave on thursday and friday to enjoy the remaining days of freedom with the gang.

WED 20 JUNE, SEE YOU THERE.

2007-06-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

haha i stole this from shengs blog but its so funny i have to put this here lol lol

anyways, back to work tomorrow... then the fun starts again after 6pm on wednesday. i used 3 days of my annual leave to spend time with my buddies so im going to make the best of these 3 days and have as much fun as i can!

bah, im too tired to think anymore... cant be bothered to end this post properly. good night people

2007-06-18T03:21:00.000+08:00

oh crap the weekend passed so quickly again hahahaha

2007-06-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

Shit I had 5 venti vanilla latte's in the last week I feel like I've negated all the exercise I did during and after my bmt! I better go for a long run tomorrow morning. But its all my fault I should never have started drinking lattes they're more addictive than mambo music...

My 2nd driving lesson was good... Only stalled once and I'm starting to get used to the stupid retarded and gay but important half clutch technique, and I hit 50kmph for the first time which was kinda scary but exciting!

But really I'm trying my best to stay positive cause the next 20 months really does seem quite bleak for me... I need to look for stuff to occupy my mind with after I'm done with driving cause if not I'll just be rotting away in my office.

OK I shall end my short post here cause I didn't even intend to blog... just got really bored. So tomorrow the BMT school 2 people pass out and we're all set to have a super fun wednesday night! I CANT WAIT

2007-06-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

Oh the anticipation! Oh the excitement and the thrill! The start of yet another work week in the SAF. And oh its so sweet that this tuesday marks the 2nd month of my acquaintance with my beloved 11B :)

So the weekend passed too quickly again, didnt even get to see sheng, chang or manav. But I'm glad that I've settled in to my office and I know how everything works now so I actually have stuff to do when I'm in there which makes time pass just a little bit faster... Spent most of the weekend shopping and bought like 2 shirts but whats more important is that i came across this:

OH JUST CHECK THESE BABIES OUT. The onitsuka tiger injector dx range is simply orgasmic! Too bad they cost like $199 and the special edition costs like $209, which is like all of my pathetic NSF pay. Looks like I'm going to have to ask my folks for cash again which kinda sucks cause it makes me feel like a loser who cant support himself but heck I AM A LOSER WHO CANT SUPPORT MYSELF :(

Ok, time to sleep now and until then I shall stay positive and ignore my sad predicament and look forward to short term goals such as ZOUK+NEWTON BAR ON WEDNESDAY or my very fun driving lessons.

And 2se1 peeps who are reading we should really go visit madam one of these weekends.. BMT guys damn free after june 13th so we can plan then!

2007-06-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

OH YES THE WEEKEND IS HERE. But I've got this enormous shit load of work piled up in the office for me to do by tomorrow i worry i might have to stay late on my 2nd favourite day of the week :(

but today kinda passed real quickly BECAUSE i had so many things to do. time just flies when you are busy!

OK time for another random photo of the past when we were still oblivious to the horrors that awaited us after enlistment.

ok la this photo is almost 2 years old now so lets analyze it in the context of today.

1. gy used to look damn innocent OMG! how could that young and naive gy turn into such a horny and homosexual monster? must be our bad influence :(

2. arthur is wearing a jockey cap. this is very paradoxical as arthur is very lucky and will never have to wear a jockey cap in his life unlike us poor NSFs.

3. weizhi's right hand is in the classic "water parade" position, this is of course a very very horrible procedure to undergo in the SAF because we would most likely be embarking on some exhausting physical training session after the water parade.

4. 2 years ago you wouldnt have noticed DX was a part of this photo at first glace. now, you still wouldnt. Little did we know at that point in time that DX was practicing the skills of cover and concealment that he had honed to perfection during his NCC days.

5. I was wearing braces 2 years ago :)

6. we were all so happy then :)

OMG 3 POSTS IN 1 DAY WHY?!!!?!!!!

2007-06-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

X says:
no love life
shaun - slaves of singapore says:
im in love with god
X says:
that sux
X says:
its like wanking

HAHAHA xavier owns

2007-06-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

weekends,
the time of the week every NSF lives for.
a time for friends and good times,
a vague attempt to relive the glory of the old times.

for the coffee sessions (cigarettes included),
for the beer at newton bar,
for the fucking 9.50 movies.
weekends are all we have left, make the best of it boys.

sorry, i felt damn random cause i cant wait for the weekend :D :D :D
weekends are the only time i get to see familiar faces, because there isnt a single person in the entire camp whom i know from my past. and its damn sad and im damn lonely and i miss my soul which has been taken away on 12 apr 2007.

on a sidenote, i have regimental duty on fathers' day which is awful cause then i won't even be able to spend fathers' day with my dad. trying to buy someone elses sunday but its pretty hard cause no one wants to be stuck in camp for 24 hours on sunday :( pray i get it

2007-06-06T18:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes i get emo and depressed and start thinking about freedom and a life free from the enslavement which i was subject to for the past 2 months. and when i think about how slowly these 2 months have passed, and that theres still 1 year and 8 months to go, i get like more depressed and thoughts of suicide flash through my mind and images of a bloody, violent death for my "captors" cloud my thoughts.

OK NO, dont get worried im not gonna kill myself i was purposely exaggerating it to make people scared. these 2 months have actually passed pretty quickly, before i know it it'll be christmas and then before i know it another christmas will pass and then ill see my pink ic again :D

i guess its always better to have a positive outlook no matter what you're going through. and if its really hard to have a positive attitude, just close your eyes and pretend its a dream. NS is just a dream, when we wake up in 2 years time we'll just forget about it and move on. We're actually so lucky that we're not regulars, for the regulars, NS is like a coma. They cant wake up. So pity them and dont hate them too much when they make you sign 3 extra, because they signed LIFETIME extra.

so thats they way i think of things now and i feel a little bit better. time for a run now and then coffee with friends later! only thing that sucks is im going to have to head home after coffee instead of going where we always go on wednesday night :(

but then again its all just a bad dream :))

hello im back on mainland for good now

2007-06-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

contrary to popular belief, im actually quite sad that i had to downgrade. there goes my hopes of going ocs and commissioning in the safti parade square as an officer. but i dont have a choice la, the memories of the pain i went through in bmt are just too much to bear. sometimes my hip would hurt so much that i wouldnt even be able to sleep at night. i wasnt prepared to go though that kind of pain just to attain a rank and i dont want to go through that kind of pain again cause it really sucks.

but looking on the bright side, at least i get to book out everyday to see my parents and sleep on my bed and go online. and i can learn driving and get my license too! so it all doesnt seem too bad right now :)) but im gonna have to find ways to supplement my income or ill have to change my lifestyle. i simply cant survive on $350, spent $500 into my savings in just 2 months and i feel damn bad about it already...

went back to acjc with my class yesterday to collect our school graduation certs. the school hasnt changed one bit structurally, its still the same place i worked and played for 2 great years. but deep inside i know it has changed, an intake of no acsi boys and (increasingly) fucked up barker boys destroy the ac spirit and the influx of students from other schools diversifies the school culture which is a good and bad thing but i think its just a bad thing cause the thing that makes acjc stand out is our unique culture and our acs identity and that is being lost, sadly. i didnt want to admit it at first cause i was a barker boy but we really do need the acsi guys in acjc cause of they make up for like half our male population and without them now that vacancy is being filled up with like fucked up people.

dont get my views wrong i dont hate people from schools other than the ac feeder schools. but its just that theres too many of them now, just too many, so the school has to inevitably change for the (in my opinion) worst. i dont blame these kids, its not their fault. the blame lies with people i cannot name on this blog cause im too scared to do so. all i can say is that i think IB was a really bad idea, they could have just kept half of the acsi boys and sent the other half over to acjc but no, they had to keep all of them and give us like a very small handful.

ok i need to sleep now cause i have to go to work tomorrow and i have driving after that!!!

i miss those days

i wanna be 18 forever. i wanna lead the post A levels pre enlistment life forever. i know that even after ORD things will be different cause there'll be prep for university and we'll be like 21 already that would make us so bloody old and we'll have to be more responsible and stuff so we cant do stuff like make su go into the house of wax again :(

2007-04-10T01:37:00.000+08:00

timetable for tomorrow :

1000 hrs - wake up
1030 hrs - do a few push ups (see a chinese doctor later if my hand still hurts)
1100 hrs - leave the house and head to the west
1105 hrs - call zh and sk
1200 hrs - meet sk to pass her my mp3 player if possible and zh for lunch
1230 hrs - meet phil to buy stuff
1300 hrs - meet the other guys
1330 hrs - buy the other stuff which i need for army
1430 hrs - have fun in town one last time
1430 onwards free and easy

so cool timetabling my whole day, then ill have to stick to it like im in the army. i've decided to revive this blog again, it'll be useful in storing my thoughts and memories throughout NS life.

2007-03-23T03:54:00.000+08:00

she's the one that keeps the dream alive
from the morning
past the evening
till the end of the light!

yeah sorry i hate short posts too
so i promise to post properly soon?
lol

2007-03-08T16:33:00.000+08:00

so many mistakes i make repeatedly despite telling myself not to commit them again

2007-03-07T20:21:00.000+08:00

self conducted tour of smu yesterday was pretty fun. i guess its not a bad place to spend the last days of my academic life. the school is really very different, i've been to nus a few times already and i cant help but note that the two uni's are really very different from each other. its pretty hard to describe, i get a whole different feeling when im in smu. it almost feels like ac :)

in other news, im still real sad over my results, and my emo-ness over that is slowly infiltrating into other parts of my life. people have noticed and told me to fcuk off cause i didnt do that badly, but i didnt expect them to understand anyways so i dont care. ok nothing much else already, haha i've got a sore throat and a cold so im wondering if i should go for mambo tonight. i think i should though it'll cheer me up.

random advert : will be in acjc on friday, anyone interested to go?

emo emo get over it soon

:(

2007-03-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

AAB B3. If you have been following my previous posts, then you'd know I am obviously disappointed with my results. I was so close yet so far. Yes, this bloody phrase again, "so close yet so far". My entire life has been a case of so close yet so far. I have been so close yet so far in so many situations they are now countless. I hate being almost there.

Another huge reason for my disappointment is that the B was for math. Of all the subjects that I had to get a B for, it had to be the one which I was positive that I would get an A in... If the B was in physics or chemistry maybe I would have took it better cause I would have been better prepared for that outcome. I was half expecting my physics to be a B anyways. It was probably careless mistakes that screwed me in the math paper. Its like a bloody joke huh...

Some people were telling me that my results were still good. To me, it doesnt really matter how good it is if it isnt as good as I wanted it to be. I wasnt on stage, I wasnt good enough. Its all about the targets that we set for ourselves, if I wanted to get 3B's and I received my current result, of course I'd be pleased. But I had aimed for a result which I failed to attain.

I know that some people are pissed at the way that I'm so sad even though I still did reasonably well. But please, understand that those were the results that I had been aiming for since the start of JC. And also, I think that for A levels, "doing well" is defined based on your personal target, as well as your course of choice. If your results are good enough to secure you a place in the course, you have done well. And I don't even know if I'll be able to secure that law interview with my current results. The B3 for gp was almost as disappointing as the B for math, its going to kill me later on in my life. It'll be a mistake that'll haunt me forever.

So my dreams of returning on founders day to receive my award will never come true. Just like the many other dreams and aspirations I've had but failed to achieve. I had always secretly wanted my parents to watch me receive my scholastic merit award on founders day, but now they never will. The last time they saw me receive an academic award, I was in primary 5. LOL. Now I don't know if they'll even get to see me receive an academic award again.

I'm slowly getting over it. I'm a little less angry with myself now than I was 2 days ago when I received my results. Maybe in a year or so I'll be able to put this behind me. I'm not joking, cause I know that at next years founders day, when a quarter of my cohort returns to receive their awards, Ill be in some army camp somewhere, feeling like shit and being unable to do anything about it. Whatever it is, I just know I won't get over this fast.

Like ZH says, life sucks.

12 more hours

2007-03-02T02:32:00.000+08:00

it'll be the final gathering for the class of 06 in about 12 hours time. so sad, i probably wont see some of my school mates for the rest of my life.

i need to take it easy later, because i know i wont accept anything other than what i had set out to achieve. im still hoping the outcome is what i've been dreaming it to be, i dont know how im going to take it if isnt.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I CANT WAIT

2007-02-28T16:26:00.000+08:00

Mmmmm so like as x pointed out to be just now in about 48 hours we'll be getting our results. I just cant wait, the huge amount of time we have between knowing when we'll be getting our results and receiving them causes a lot of unnecessary anxiety and etc.

Im actually very worried about the results, Im very afraid that I would not be able to to live up to the expectations I have set for myself. I just hope that I have done well enough, if not I would be very sad. But I have faith in Him, and thats all I need to carry me through till friday.

But I must say ah... its really damn stupid to judge students this way, through just one bloody crucial exam. Like since its just once then obviously luck will play a big part in it isnt it? Like how are we going to tell if smartest kid wakes up with a headache and cant think properly for the paper, while the dumbest kid guesses all the hard questions right. Seriously, exams like the O and A levels are damn dumb ideas.

Ahhh I hate the rain, because of the rain i couldnt go out today. I had so many things to do lar! now I just have to put it off till tomorrow.

I cant wait for friday.

i tried not to make this emo

2007-02-23T15:31:00.000+08:00

I was going to make this another post-mambo post. but changed my mind cause there really is nothing much to talk about. Its always the same anyways, getting high and loving every second then waking up the next day feeling like shit.

So I realized that recently all my blog updates have become like post-mambo posts. How sad, its like I not longer feel motivated to continue blogging. I dont even know what im doing with my own life anymore, I feel so empty, I hate this emptiness. That big part of my life that involved going to school and being happy is suddenly gone, all I have left are memories. And even playing gets boring after awhile.

I was also accidentaly enlightened by someone about an issue I had already known but refused to accept. Damn it I'm being vague again it must be really boring and hard to read this blog. Sorry, I guess like only 5 people will understand what I'm talking about lol.

Moving on to happier topics, Qing believes that he is allergic to martini's.

yeah ok I know stop laughing now.
But really qing i dont think its the martini, its probably the thing glennchee offered you that night lol.
yeah qing's nuts even when he's not high, its pretty funny.

and since you're all laughing already let me end the post with the funniest thing you've ever heard. its an sms from zhihuan in reply to one of my dumb responses to one of his serious sms-es. here it goes "Life isn't about getting laid cos you have hands. Its about finding your soulmate" lol yep thats the original version i didnt edit anything and i swear its the funniest shit i ever heard him say lol lol.

2007-02-16T11:16:00.000+08:00

2 days ago i woke up and it dawned on me, the sudden realization that it was indeed again the most screwed up day of the year. 14 of feb can really piss u off. in secondary school when there were no girls no one used to care about it and all was well we would just treat it like any other normal day and go play lan after school or something, but then i went to jc right and suddenly everyone's making a big deal out of it and buying/making all kinds of crap for everyone else and all the girls are holding flowers and looking happy (for the first and only time in the entire year lol lol).

so being un-weird people we celebrated it the normal way, by trying to ignore this disgusting element of western tradition that has pervasively invaded our traditional and beautiful asian culture (ok la im exaggerating for kicks lol lol). mmmmm so anyways we met aaron after his lunch date to shop for stuff and got owned by some over agressive/enthusiastic shop keeper at far east. ok no we werent actually shopping at far east we were shopping for proper clothes then we decided to go to far east to buy random t-shirts.

so somehow we ended up at zouk, xavier's "2 friends" turned out to be a group of 10 people. Met loads of ac people there, loads of old friends, was real fun and crazy. about 12 of us met at the coffeeshop opposite zouk to have a drink which was more like several shots of vodka cause manav brought an entire bottle of absolut. mmmmm got pretty high even before we entered zouk and really it got worst but was real fun lol lol. lost the big group somewhere around 3am and thought it was going to get boring but guess what? lol ran into jan. so we hung out with jan's gang for awhile and etc.... taught qing a few important lessons about trannies lol, qing has a lot to learn about the hidden mysteries of gaysingapore. mmmmm so altogether had like 3 shots of vodka, 1 mug of heineken, 1 vodka sprite, another mug of beer, a lychee martini and many sticks of something lol. yep it was pretty fun getting all fcuked up and messed cause we're like 18 what better age to do so right...

learnt like moves for a few mambo songs too but they're all pretty gay i guess u can only pull em off if you're high hehehe.

mmmmmmm it was a great night hope to do it sometime again soon like tonight hehehehe.

2007-02-03T11:19:00.000+08:00

It feels like the best days of my life are over, like I left my youth behind in jc. Its like I'm just living life for the sake of it now, just to pass time till the 12th of april. That was how I felt like at the start of this week, I suppose listening to VERY emo songs like the saddest song by the ataris also contributed to my lack of enthusiasm towards life haha. Listening to emo songs suck ah, it makes the happiest people emo.

But it is very gay la, it seems to me that I'm no longer having as much fun in my life. Its also very hard to find motivation in my job, its quite depressing to repeatedly attempt (and fail) to teach teenage boys who are completely indifferent to the intensions of yourself and the rest of the staff. But I dont think thats the reason why I'm so sick of my life now la, I dont really give a shit about how the normal acad guys turn out, because I kinda already know how they're gonna turn out.

Anyways later in the week I got less emo cause I started listening to happy songs like bohemian like you by the dandy warhols. So I'm happier now even though I really miss school. No other experience in life will be as fun as school ever was, and I dont think uni can be the same.

Moving on to happier issues, I hit 400apm in a battle yesterday woohoo! I guess this means I wont need to waste 100 on a stupid razor mouse if my good ol mouse can still do the trick!! Of course what I'm look for also is QAPM not APM, so I should work on that also.

But who cares about warcraft la, its just a game to me now. I no longer aspire to win wcg and such hehehe.

I still think thats its very stupid that we're forced to become mature now that we're out of school and have to take responsibility over our lives and everything that we do.

Aiyah fcuk la, theres a lot of things I wanna say but cannot. Ok bye I'm going to shop for sheng's present now hahaha

then a mile of warm sea scented beach

2007-01-25T14:07:00.000+08:00

shouldnt have drank the wine before we went to zouk last night. yeah, i was a bit high and met (according to gy) pudge. then around 2am i got real tired cause i cycled earlier in the day but stayed on the dance floor to accompany clemens since it was his last mambo :)

at least im not hungover today. but GOSH, i need to control my alcohol intake to prevent another solo mid with pudge!!

K now for photos. every time i go cycling and i end up in some nice park ill take photos of the scenery and such. i think u guys will be suprised that there are actually such beautiful landscapes in singapore now. so enjoy :)

EAST COAST PARK

ya i mean its nothing compared to like the maldives but this is good enough after a long hard day at work. i love cycling down the parkway, listening to the waves crashing against the shore.

LOWER PIERCE RESOVOIR PARK

i accidentaly ended up here haha, after i cycled to the end of bishan park. i was actually looking for MacRitchie resovoir and i found pierce, but it was still nice.

BEDOK RESOVOIR PARK (cycling is actually not allowed in this park i had to get my bike over some steps before i got in)

from ground level:

from the top of the hill:

i took awhile to climb this hill haha, but the descent later was really fun too! i kinda found out why bikes were prohibited, because this hill has awfully steep climbs leading to it. if you dont keep spinning your pedals while climbing you're gonna slide back down and fall off your bike.

i know these photos arent that great, they were taken with my phone camera. the photos really dont do justice to the truly magnificent views, especially the pierce resovoir one. maybe one day if some of you follow me on my lil cycling trips you can see it for yourselves :)

this last photo has nothing to do with my cycling trips. its the zouk dance floor before it gets full of wildly gyrating drunkards, cigarette butts, spilt vodka, vomit, pudges and wasted youths. im so proud of it cause i could capture the lighting with my phone cam, BET NONE OF YOU CAN DO THAT haha.

2007-01-23T15:01:00.000+08:00

I just had my worst ever day in barker. I took 4e1 today, it was so horrible. Before the lesson, I told myself that I would take it upon myself to teach them how to be real acs boys, and how to live up to the standards set on them by generations of previous batches. Before the period started, 3 guys got into a fight. I was not there when the fight started. Violence doesnt solve any problems, but when your IQ is lower than your age, you kinda wont understand that.

It was the period after recess, and as usual 4e1 spent their recess playing soccer at the futsal court. Hence, many of them were had their shirts unbuttoned and their pants rolled up like bermudas, classic scene from gangster student movie huh? After repeated attempts at making a student correct his attire, I put his name down for DC. Apparently this was a source of discomfort for him and his gang. Heres where I made my mistake, I put down another guys name for DC for laughing in a disruptive and jeering manner. Presumably at how I had to resort to using DC to deal with them. He got angry, they started being really rude to me. I could have said a million f words, but I tried my best to control myself. Then I lost it, I called them a bunch of useless cockups. Again, they were really offended by this. Apparently they were bothered by the fact that this was the kind of opinion the rest of the school(and public) had of them. They got even more rude and I more pissed off. I decided that I could not handle this class, I called for help. Mr Lau had always told me before he gave me a normal acad or lousy express class to teach that I could call if I couldnt handle them. But Mr Lau was absent today, so I called Mr Glenn Wong who then called Mr Timothy Wong.

He came up and sorted it out. I spent a long time cooling off outside the class while he was with them inside, I hadnt been so angry ever before. It was real bad. Mr Wong was pretty professional in handling it though, all he did was sort out the initial mess. He allowed me to choose what I wanted to do myself. He didnt ask me to take ALL the guys names I put in the CMR off, he didnt ask me to apologise to them for calling them useless.

Gosh, it was so bad. My entire day is now spoilt. I mean like I deeply respect Mr Ng for everything he has done for the school, and I truly believe in his cause. That some of the boys from the school can really be saved. But sometimes, I just think that maybe, we shouldnt have a normal stream. These are the ones that have little respect for teachers, little regard for the things they learn in school, and a huge impact on the reputation that generations of previous ACS boys have built up (or has helped to enhance the notoriety that previous batches of barker boys similar to them have earned for themselves?)

I know that deep down, these guys are pretty nice, because I had a pretty good chat with them after the whole incident. 4D1 is another normal class that I teach all the time, and I have a pretty good relationship with them. Sometimes I even look forward to my lessons with them. I suppose Ill have to learn how to deal with these guys. I learnt a very important lesson about teaching these guys today. I hope that one day these boys will learn how to be proper ACS boys, and then they will be able to grow to be men of significance and stature in society today, like the many many generations of boys before us have. And then they will be ready to carry the school name well (But sadly, I doubt it).

I hope my bad day ends here. Im going to clarke quay to watch the singapore and malaysia match with some friends later, hopefully I can forget all this shit. Haha

2007-01-18T10:42:00.000+08:00

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white;
Just our hands clasped so tight,
Waiting for the hint of a spark.
If heaven and hell both decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the "no's" on their vacancy signs.
If there's no one beside you,
when your soul embarks;
then I'll follow you into the dark.

i love this song, its so meaningful. LOL WTF but its damn emo im so emo now why whyyyyyyyyyyyyy

love of mine

2007-01-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

Im really tired. Barker only calls me at about 7am each morning, they give me about an hour to get to school. As I am still in bed when they call me, and I take about 20 minutes to get fully ready, you can understand that I end up taking cabs everyday. Its not that bad, only about $7 from my house to Barker, only that I have to cough up another $4 for calling the cab, $2 for peak hour surcharge and $1 for ERP. Thats $14 wasted, but sigh what can I do, they always call too late for me to take a bus through peak hour traffic. Considering I earn $65 a day, if you minus cpf and cab fare I only get about $40 back. Can I say a vulgarity now? Thanks. FUCK

Most of the kids in barker are ok, they respect me because I give them more freedom than a normal teacher would. But some kids are really damn cock up. SOME, really... Wish I could say more here but I'm a teacher now haha. Anyways I'm secretly hoping they dont call me tomorrow, I'm too tired. Been sleeping 2-4 hours a day for the last 3 days because if you know me well enough you'll know I only get to sleep around 3am. Shag to hell man. Shagged to hell.

I've been cycling daily for the last 2 days too. My legs and butt hurt like shit. Even the best, most comfy bike saddle KILLS la hahaha. But the GT agressor really is damn sexy to ride, the brakes are really responsive, and suspension is so good it even damps when I brake, the gears shift much faster than a normal bike, and it has killer looks. Woohoo.

But I've been pretty depressed lately. Things are not going well in my life.

Yeah I know it must be real boring to read this update cause its just whining and shit. Maybe I'll compose more fun stuff when I'm happy again.

But its nothing to cry about;
cause we'll hold each other soon.

2007-01-05T02:04:00.000+08:00

ventures' night

good food, nice ambience.
generations of alumni,
loads of catching up,
tons of fun.

ok qing im sorry i had to post this pic of you looking so unglam and queer but its the only v. night photo i have since i just stole them from AT's friendster haha.

2007-01-02T02:39:00.000+08:00

Haha I cant believe I deleted my first post of 2007, but I did. What a way to start the new year! Nevermind, that way, when I look back at the events of yesterday night, I'll be able to remember clearly and remind myself not to let it happen again.I did make my New Year's resolution last night though, it was one of the last things I remember doing before waking up at 430pm today, haha.

Since its New Year we should also remember the poem 'God Knows' by M. Louise Baskins that they print in almost every ACS school publication, where it is known as the Knight's Prayer:

And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year:
"Give me a light,
that i may thread safely into the unknown."

And he replied:
"Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way."

In many ways this prayer is significant today, now that we are no longer schooling and are free to do anything we want. The future holds many possibilites and challenges, and only through God will we be able to tide through these periods.

Oh and look GY a paragraph in my pseudo first post of the year dedicated to you. GY is back in Singapore people!! Stay off BNet to avoid his trail of destruction. No la, I'm really pleased that he's back, he's like the glue that gets all of 2se1 on BNet to play DotA and stuff. BNet has been pretty boring without him online, I hardly play with the 2se1 people and its real boring winning every game with the sOz people. So its good that he's back and I'll start losing again. Cheers GY

And because I did not mass send SMSes wishing everyone a Happy New Year this time, a routine which i have followed fervently since like forever. I would like to wish you and your loved ones a splendid New Year, and I really hope this will be a GREAT YEAR for everybody I know.

LOVE YA'LL ALWAYS

2006-12-25T13:18:00.000+08:00

We were having breakfast at the PS macdonalds after church yesterday when xavier came, on his bike, in his full cycling attire. Now imagine that, X wearing a skin tight black spandex full body suit... OK maybe you shouldn't imagine that. But anyways after awhile he just rode off back down orchard road again, saving our eyes from a truly horrible sight.

Then we decided to watch curse of the golden flower. Wah qing and ds are really some newbs at watching movies ah they dont know whats happening and how the plot is developing and etc ah. I think the movie was great, except for those fucking ah bengs who didnt bother to silence their phones resulting in their jay chou ringtones spoiling the movie. I counted more than 5 phones go off ringing throughout the movie, and the theatre was only half full. fuckers, they seriously should learn some etiquette to make up for their intelligience or whatever else of the million things they suck in.

Despite those distractions, I still managed to appreciate the Zhang Yi Mou film, he's such a great director la, like all his films are so wonderful. Actually, I more of enjoyed the grandeur of the film than the story. Like, the magnificence and splendor of the forbidden city and everything it beholds was displayed so well, like the palace guards, or even the hot servant girls (haha). No, actually my favourite part was how every hour some eunuchs will go around beating gongs and announcing some heavenly whatever in a poetic way. The acting was great too, I think many Chen Yu's were used, although I dont understand most of them. The use of such words gives the royal family a sophistication right, like how the queen of england always uses some kind of flowery language too.

AH who cares, just watch it. Im sorry I used some vulgarities just now, but I really was damn annoyed by behaviour of some assholes hah

2006-12-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

Since prom has just ended, I should rightfully post prom pics. But it would be so weird to post the baccalaureate pics after the prom pics so ill just post the baccalaureate pics first. Actually, I forgot to bring my cam for prom so the prom pics i post will be stolen from other people anyways haha!

Some pictures wont have captions cause im lazy, and some are blurry cause I messed up ok its quite hard to take photos with my cybershot. So like, just chill and rewind to a time when we were still worrying about A levels

After 12 years, I still look up daily at the acs crest with pride.

Li Hao fires the first shot

GY and I in some dark corner

Xavier pretending to play golf for Singapore

Oh Wise Pastor Reverend Esteemed Pope

wtf why's this photo so dark which newb took it? (must be that fag gy)

2 years of afternoons spent on BNet with these people

DotA gang with madam and weizhi

Barker boys in 2se1

Math God

Chinese God

Chem tuition gang

All the girls in 2se1 in the 3 following photos

sec4 basketball everyday even during prelims yo!!!

students sketchpad

Another math god

Look closely at the piece of paper

I really respect this man

DUNKIN!

<3

K ITS OVER.
it took damn long to upload all these shit lar

i can finally blog normally now YES!!

2006-12-10T13:40:00.000+08:00

i've really started uploading the pictures, but its a very boring and time consuming process, so its going to take awhile. thats because im too lazy to compress the pictures so they are all like 1MB and it takes about a minute for each to be uploaded to blogger and there are so many pics and i dont want to waste too much time on them and stuff.

it has been a long week, from pre-prom prep to prom to post-prom partying to the post-prom class chalet. the party at dxo was quite an eye opener o_O lol. when i speak of eye opener i mean it in every sense of the word. er, nevermind haha, only like 5 people will understand what im talking about.

4v4 AT-ing with chang, sheng and su every night from 2am till early is quite fun. we're getting pretty good at it so its quite thrilling. dota-ing with my classmates isnt as exciting, sadly. i hate losing. i ABHOR losing. but i understand, some people lack the sense or experience to know what to do at the most crucial of times in the most important of battles. but heck, dota is just a freaking game.

but there still are other problems in my life, other issues bothering me. i feel like im drifting away from god, i dont know why. ahhhhhhhhh life really sucks when you dont have one :(

Till next time, i promise ill update soon!

SO WHAT

2006-11-20T13:51:00.000+08:00

The A levels are over. I dont really feel anything though. I dont know, after the O's I was so hugely relieved and excited about the end of the exams right, but for A levels it doesnt really feel all that great. Maybe its because I've been through it before, I really dont know. Anyways I guess I should analyze all the papers and maybe when I get my results I can come back to this post and go "YEAH, ok" ...

1. GP - Actually I'm secretly scared of something I might have forgotten to do in paper 1, because the question was "does technology ALWAYS improve the quality of people's lives" right, I'm not sure if I answered the qualifier, the ALWAYS part, or actually I think I forgot whether I did answer it. I hope I did lol. But anyways I kinda geared my essay in the direction of "its obviously not always" so yeah. Faith. Paper 2 was quite fun.

2. Math P1 - By cambridge standards the paper wasnt easy. I think its one of the hardest A level math papers set by cambridge ever. But who cares cause by AC internal exams standards its like free frag.

3. Chem P3 - Whoa I've been dreading this paper. God was particularly good to me that day, all the answers I guessed were tycolly correct and I only made 1 real mistake which I really regret in the entire paper.

4. Math P2 - NO KICK

5. Physics P1 and 2 - P1 was NO KICK, after all the prelim papers I did it was pretty free frag too. Only made 1 careless mistake which I regret. P2 was killer. Also this year I think we saw one of the hardest physics papers papers set by cambridge. I forsee many casualties in physics this year.

6. Chem P2 - NO KICK. tycolly guessed about 5 marks correctly again in this paper god's grace is truly amazing :)

7. Physics P3 - Utterly non- standard. I dont know whats up with all these people thinking they did well for physics p3. I mean I didnt think it was that bad too, until i saw Mr Khor. If Mr Khor looks troubled after the paper, all the physics students in Singapore better be worried. And chang was telling me about how ownage the paper was too. Too many of the main stayers in the Physics didnt even come out this year, like EMI and Quantum. To the astute student, those are often also the questions which give students their marks. Its such a pity, as a school we have worked so hard for physics, 2 mock exams and countless hours of Mr Khor screaming at us. Now I guess we just have to take comfort in the fact that the entire country screwed it up and pray hard for gosu moderation.

ONE DAY BREAK STONE IN SCHOOL AND DREAM ABOUT LIFE AFTER A LEVELS

8. Chem P1 - One tricky bitch it was. I havent really analyzed this paper but from outside exam hall chatter i made 2 careless mistakes so far :( but i believe it'll be ok cause god is damn GOSU.

Life after the A levels is pretty boring. After having so many things to do in 2 years, I kinda dread having nothing to do now. Its so weird to wake up in the morning and not have anything to rush. Ah well i guess when everyone else finishes their exams it will be more fun. We can go put the chang jie MAN U plan into action and etc.

In other news, I owned qing in pool yesterday. He is such a noob, all that mugging for A levels has made qing a noob and gay guy. But qing was always noob and gay la hahahahah

In other other news, GY has bought a Razor Krait mouse and a Razor Exactmat. We have yet to see how they have improved his game (lol)

In other other other news, while gargling my mouth with listerine this morning i accidentaly swallowed half a mouthful of it. It was damn hot and I think it mixed with my breakfast to own my stomach cause im still having a stomach ache now and i feel like vomitting argh PAIN PAIN.

Im also starting my caffeine detox program! After having 2-3 cups a day for 3 months I am now down to like 1 every 2 days. But I feel quite tired without coffee :( My right eye has also stopped twitching since the level of caffiene in my blood has dropped.

More updates soon! I just realized I still havent uploaded Baccalaureate pictures haha

2006-11-05T20:09:00.000+08:00

so my daily conversations with God go something like:
"hey God, A levels are damn scary"
"yes sonny, have faith, be strong"
"ok father, but im still very scared of chem"
"well thats cause you decided to fool around all this while innit"
"can i take physics and maths now? so i can get over it, i hate waiting, but i wanna take chem in 3 months time"
"whats your problem? i have 10000 other prayers to answer you know"
amen.

so my conversations with God are very healthy and i always learn something out of every one. dont ask me how i hear him. i guess we all can, in our hearts. frequently, when we are in the exam hall waiting for the paper to begin, i close my eyes and pray too. when i can hear Him, i know it'll all be ok.

Chemistry is like this big leap of faith for me, just that the hangtime is going to be about 4 months. as oppsed to the usual leaps we take in which we take moments to land again right. and the longer you stay in the air, no more doubts you have, you wonder how you're going to land, you wonder if you're going to land.
its so horrible
its so scary.

well, in other news, saddam is going to hang. i dont know why but i feel a tinge of sadness. i mean, he's been like such a big part all these world events and etc, then suddenly he has 30 days left to live unless his appeal is successful. why dont they just imprison him for life? i've always thought that the death penalty was damn messed. its so final, because once you're dead thats it.

heres where i end. i doubt there'll be another update till the end of my exams. until then, we should all pray, hard. through him, we will be more than conquerors.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God" - Philippians 4:6

The LORD is my light and my salvation,
whom shall i fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life,
of whom shall i be afraid?
-Psalm 27:1

2006-10-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

so like a central theme of war poetry is cartharsis right. but then like, jc2 people also need their own carthartic ways to de-stress right. so like:

IM DAMN SCARED I CANNOT GET 3A's

PCB. PCBPCBPCB its like im damn scared of getting complacent right, cause thats what i let happen to me for the prelims. im particularly scared for chem, its my most shaky subject, although im improving, im quite sure if they hit me with a well placed question to screw up my thought process they'll own my entire paper.

even at the peak of my O level revision, i didnt feel like i could get 6 points. but now its different, my target is within reach, but i must own the paper properly. im not too sure if i prefer a hard paper or an easy paper though. cause like chang said, if they set a hard paper its better cause those w_f_s (must watch what we say now people getting raped for voicing their views on elitism) peeps will mess it up and we can take our rightful places in the normal distribution chart.

yeah, exams start next week. at this point its like exactly 3 weeks till the end of the A levels. its going to pass too quickly for my liking. oh yeah, i've been telling people that i want to buy a crumpler bag after A's, like a huge one. everyone i have told keeps on telling me its so poser and gay, but like, i think its quite cool what. especially since after A's i wont have to carry books around anymore so like i dont think ill ever carry a backpack again.

must focus,
must concentrate,
must own.
oh yes, i can see it. the future looks good.
or at least at this point, haha

2006-10-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

today we went back to school to study.
the entire school was locked, the only place to study was the void deck and canteen. unfortunately, like all void decks and canteens, it was smelly and gay so i couldnt study there. but that wasnt a problem, cause i went with su and zheng hao to nl ten and we (or i, because su was being a wuss) jacked it.

anyways we discovered that wong's classroom was as clean as he left it the last time, so it was almost as pleasent studying there was it would have been in the canteen with the bird droppings and 3 days old chicken rice. so we did some work. then su started being gay with the air con, and i found a giant ant, and zheng hao finished his chem paper so we started to waste time by helping su to gay with the air con. then we found out that someone had accidentaly jacked the hub too, according to su someone got thrown onto the hub door and the door open upon impact. yeah, so next time i wont bother to do mission impossible 4 to jack the north lodge (we'll just throw su into the door repeatedly until it breaks).

then at 6pm su realized that he hasnt had his daily wank so he went home to relieve himself. and zheng hao left also because i made him pay $6.10 for one burger. but it was true ok, the bloody burger was $6.10, i didnt even know it costs that much. seriously BK shouldnt be so gay about their double whoppers with chesse, i mean it only weighs like 1kg right.

i got my enlistment letter today. im not a policeman, i can go ocs, but im in t3h OLD SCHOOL. and 12 april seems like an awfully long time to wait to get my first taste of being owned by some ite drop out coporal with half the intelligience of a cactus.

chang jie is bugging me, he is gay, stupid, and gay. i know he will read this so i might as well type something to piss him off. but i think chang jie might be able to get like one S paper disctinction, tycolly. and chang jie is damn pro in dota also, but dota seems so historic because i havent played it for so long.

theres only like 4 weeks left till the end of A levels. how quick, but like i know why since i studied physics. its like relativistic. cause like, einstein said that and einstein says everything that he says is true so when he said that chang jie was gay, stupid, and gay he meant it too. ok wtf am i talking about, i shall go back to study.

3.1 GOOD STUDY HAVEN

2006-10-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

ok i lied, since i reformatted my computer i havent had time to install the program to upload pics from my cybershot so i cant post the baccalaureate photos yet :(

so i've spent most of the week mugging for about 14 hours a day in school. theres this empty classroom, 3.1, which i particularly like studying in. its like the 2ad1 form class and its always empty and the location is just nice, like the void deck and library are so accessible from there. and theres no noisy people like in the hub! but then again sometimes when im in the hub i make quite a lot of noise too. i guess its a hub thing, mugging there leads to talking which leads to more unproductive stuff like (exploring the school at 9pm with all the lights out).

yeah, su and chang are so adventurous and pioneering, they particularly enjoy roaming the school with all the lights out 10 days before the most important exam of their lives. but seriously, maybe end october is not the most urgent time to explore level 7 toilets...

in other news, im finally ranked to captain on area00! if u guys dont know, area00 is a damn fun game to replace dota with cause it only takes up 3mins a day and you get so sick of clicking that after 3mins you go back to your nov 2003 maths paper 2 question 5bii.
ABER:

yeah. you guys can start to make your accounts on korea server too! cause su and i have this uber plan to like OWN the area00 world after A's. how exciting. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

um, im enlisting in march. so im most probably going back to relief teach in barker. it would be quite fun. and enriching. and fulfilling. but im not too sure if their have vacancies, and if there are better alternatives than teaching rowdy, violent boys whom i once resembled. yeah, whatever, back to mugging now before f1 qualifying later at 12! (yes f1 qualifying is at midnight today damn sian)

ACS

2006-10-10T20:17:00.000+08:00

you see, ac is a bloody hax school right from the very start. the only way to get into the primary school is to either stay 5m away from the actual school, or to have a parent who had graduated from an acs related institution before. so in good ol' 94, my father enrolled me in what he thought would be the best education for his son, since he himself had received it.

so in primary 1 i walked into my classroom in the first level of the clocktower block in the barker road campus with some sort of apprehension, unsure of what the school held ahead for me. it was pretty thrilling though, being such young kids, and the campus so old and huge, we would spend recesses trying to explore the school, play catching but never finish the game because of the sheer size of the compound, or dare each other to run up the spooky clocktower staircase. haha, it was a pretty fun childhood. acps also shared the campus with the secondary section, acs (barker). even when i was 7, when i looked at the way those guys behaved, i kinda made up my mind not to continue in that school. little did i know that 6 years later, it would be the very school i had entered. maybe instead of playing catching, i should have studied a little harder.

but barker wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. if anything, it transformed me. it taught me faith, it thought me to dream, and to hope. although i cant testify much about the "value added"-ness of the school, because academically, i decreased in value, i can say i learnt much more than math and english in that school. acs barker was also the place where my relationshop with god grew. in primary school, i would attend chapel and listen to devotions, but not really appreciate what was being shared. perhaps it was how god gave me so many chances in those four years, and so much hope. barker was also the placed i met my best friends, the ones i could really trust, the ones whom i know wouldnt desert me for all the money in the world( but probably for a dota game they would). i met 4a3, the best class i could ever wish for (until 2se1?), 4a3 was a bloody good experience, ill remember those boys forever.

acjc was a different experience altogether. i mean like suddenly, CO-ED. damn scary, i suppose we were all suddenly very self conscious, but in time we all got used to it. of course, being from barker, we all had to get used to paying attention and cutting our hair. but it was all good for us. if barker created me, acjc refined me. meeting the acsi guys were a shock. i mean, we were primary school friends after all. how could 2 schools stand for the same values, but yet be so far apart? academically? in terms of student behaviour? public opinion? i seemed to be blessed with being put in great classes. i met 2se1, 2se1 are a great bunch of people, if you take away one of us, you wont have a complete class. these folks made my acjc experience complete, they make my want to go to class daily, cause its so damn fun. im sure we'll all do well for our A levels :)

when good ol oldham made acs in 18 something (its too long ago i forgot), i daresay he never expected it to expand into an entire family of 6 schools. but acs is not just an institution, thats too empty a word. acs is an identity, every person who passes through its gates will learn something from that experience. every boy who's life its changed will forever have the values the school stands for deeply imbued within him.

i know it sounds damn corny, this school has changed my life, its made me who i am. because its the only school i know. i also know there'll always be people like zhihuan who hate the school as much as we love it, but at least we know why. you can also find these breed of people in acjc, unhappy, disgruntled, full of hate, these are the people who dont want to be here. oh yes, you'd be suprised, so many kids appeal every year trying to get in, yet there are people within the school who hate it. they'll never find their place in our culture, because they didnt want to.

im damn freaking proud of this heritage. and im gonna preserve it as long as i can, even after i leave the school.

:) cheers and happy baccalaureate

next post on pictures taken tmr!

2006-10-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

you see in every acs school that i've been to, i've received honours at least once. or at least that was so until i came to acjc. but seriously, my cca endeavours in this school are really pretty messed up haha. but i guess i just have to make up for it by going on stage one last time, the only time it matters.

some guys have started to receive their enlistment letters. i haven't gotten mine yet. actually i kinda hope i enlist in april, i'd fancy the free time to do things which i really wanted to do. like maybe go to cambodia and help the children, then step on a land mine and lose a few limbs, get downgraded and work as a clerk in the army. not a bad life eh? except i reckon the land mine part might hurt pretty bad.

i think about half my class are pes c and below. so they can slack off and play dota for 2 years, quite fun. but i was thinking about it, being a clerk has so many more merits. like going home everyday to see your parents and watch your pet cactus grow. and like if you only work 9 to 5 then at least you wont be so worried about your gf running off with some poly guy while you're trekking through the jungles of borneo, sweaty, exhausted, tired, with just the thought of her keeping you going. haha, very ironic, but thats just my imagination (life is more cruel, she'll run off with landon su). so i guess we should all turn gay cause then our gay partners will be there with us in borneo too. haha

um, school's ending, my next post shall be on that. 12 years in acs is quite hard to put into words, i guess im gonna need some time to compose all that. but in the mean time, study study study!

HAZE

2006-10-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

ABER
ABER
ABER
WHY CANT I SEE ANYTHING?

its damn hard to breathe, how to study? its so foggy, i cant read my notes.
the haze got damn f-ed up today. im like almost choking already.

but then again, not being able to see anything is sometimes good. ignorance is so much better than knowledge.

i had this great, long post planned so well in my head earlier today. but in the end it came to naught because im too tired/ suffocated/ troubled/ worried to properly think now.
i guess i need some sleep

2006-09-24T15:56:00.000+08:00

oh shit. dx's msn nick is scaring the hell out of me. 38 days left to A levels. ok, typing that made me suddenly want to mug now. so i guess i have to end here, hahahaha

2006-09-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

ok i think i got over my prelims. so i think im ready to talk about it now. i've thought it all out, lying in my bed on friday night, unable to sleep until 4am. i think god wants me to mug more, i know that sometimes im really quite slack. if i want to do well, i should devote every waking hour to mugging, and not just waste time chatting on the phone or thinking about my lost love dota.

actually, i think doing countless prelim mcq papers kinda contributed to my mess up too. like after doing so many mcq's, im too used to working things out quickly and taking shortcuts. not showing adequete working and stuff. even so, i dont think ill ever in this life of mine be able to accept the fact that i mugged so hard for physics, and still screwed up. but i guess for prelims, effort doesnt equate to results.

when i first got the papers back, i felt this rush of hate towards the entire physics department. why did they have to mark so strictly and be so picky? why didnt they appreciate the effort that i put in? but now i know, they want us to realize many things, that our answers must be well organized, we must know what the examiner wants us to see from that question, because examiners are essentially dumb, therefore we have to show every single small formula, step, equation, proof, definition, statement, SI unit, diagram and whatever other thing we learnt in the first 5 minutes of each lecture (before we fall asleep) this 2 years.

i must say im not looking forward to the end of the A levels. you see, while peeps like dx are busy counting the days left to the start of A levels, im counting the days left to the end. its a kind of dread to realize that my 12 years of schooling have gone by so fast, and that there are less days left to my NS enlistment than i had to mug for A levels. haha, time to get back to the books. i know god will not forsake me, as will he not to the many other friends i have in ac who have done badly. he will honour our hard work.

2006-09-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

ok la i realize that i was stupid. god has a reason for putting me through all this shit. i will continue working hard, he will not forsake me.

MUG

2006-09-15T18:56:00.000+08:00

ok please pardon me for using the f word in this post, im really quite pissed off. you see, i spent so much bloody time doing physics in the entire month before the prelims. after doing like 3 papers a week and all that shit, all i get is some shit score. then for my fucking chemistry, i didnt even study at all, i did like an infinite amount more physics than chemistry. and my chem grade can still beat my phyiscs? i mean like WTF lar. why didnt my effort equate to my eventual score? this sucks.

what is god doing to me? i thought he would at least reward all my fucking effort for physics in some way. FUCK

oh shit, i need to cool off

2006-09-11T19:39:00.000+08:00

first day of the last term of school :(
today, i was reminded how little time i have left in this school. im so gonna miss all the fun and good times i've had, if only i could stay in ac foreverrrrrr. but i know i have to move on, there are greater things to accomplish for God's glory.

to commemorate this day, we took stupid photos

lihao's and my first chem lecture in about 3 months. you see, we found the opportunity cost of attending chem lec too high, we could done much more productive work in the library. behind us is the rare sighting of clemens paying attention. in the background there are random classmates being studious, zheng hao wondering what we're doing, and yeecheng's hairband.

at this point, clemens got bored of the chem lecture too. but the reflection from the lights above spoilt the photo.

waiting for gp class to start.

ok la the following picture wasnt taken today but i decided to upload it anyways cause i found it in my phone.

a happier day:)
those were the days, when the prelims still seemed far away.
now, the road to the A's lies stark ahead of us.
a road which we have no choice but to travel.
but then again, i love this road. hahah

2006-09-06T10:54:00.000+08:00

at first, frostbite didnt seem like such a bad movie. only that it was in swedish and we had to read the english subtitles for the entire duration of the movie. but at least there was a hot swedish chick as the female lead, even though she had a swedish name that sounded retarded, saga. who the hell will call anything saga? wtf. but anyways it had all the makings of a cool vampire show where the heroes slay the vampires in the end. until the idiot director decided it was cooler to turn the entire town into vampires, and so he did. sigh, if that show had a dawn of the dead kind of ending, maybe it wouldnt have been so dumb.

swenson's coffee sucks. i had the worst latte in my life last night at the PS swensons. i mean, if you know that your coffee sucks then maybe you shouldnt go and charge people $3.90 for a small cup of it wtf!!!

um, i started mugging. its pretty fun to do mcq's actually. but im just worried ill burn out too fast. dunno, daryl told me that dk told his class to slack off for the entire hols, because next term was going to be uber hardKHOR. but he didnt tell my class anything, so i guess we are allowed to mug during the hols. haha.

so since i've officially quit dota last sunday night, i have loads of free time now. im not exactly spending all my free time mugging, but im doing more meaningful things with my time. like in the past few days, i've read a lot of random things, its pretty fun to read these kinda stuff and just broaden our minds. like for physics, i was reading about maxwell's equations and light, and einstein's relativity. omg i dont know why we're not learning that for A level physics lor, you can only truly appreciate einstein's gennius if you see what he did in relativity. and maxwell, omg another genius not allowed to display his findings to generations of JC students.

my heart cries out for them.

2006-08-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

haha i changed address, i've always thought singwhenitrains sounded damn gay, but i never really got the chance to change it.

so while thinking of a new address, i consulted sean ng and he told me that i was asking for suggestions because i dont know who i am, thats why i cant think of a proper name for my blog. then he proceeded to suggest a gay address "searchingfortheanswer.blogspot" since i was searching for my own identity. yeah, great help he was.

then later that day, i realized that actually there was a unique word that people would associate with my name. STYUIOP. hahaha, my email since primary 2 beat that bitch! so when people see styuiop, they think of ST. therefore ST's blog should be STyuiop. then i called qing, and qing told me he reckoned it was a good idea to change it to styuiop too, which made me have second thoughts about it cause qing's good ideas are always bad.

but anyways, i still changed it. so there you go, something new to type in the address bar when you want to get to my blog. but then again i know that most of u lazy people get linked here from class blog or something.

the break on friday was pretty good, i just dotaed the entire day and got pissed off enough with zhihuan to run to his house to throttle him until i realized that asshole doesnt have one and i'll probably get throttled instead since he knows how to fight karate or some bullshit now. ah well, ill just wait till they legalize firearms cause no matter how many ha dou ken's you can do, you cant stop my bullet. HAHAHA.

yesterday was supposed to be the buffer day, you know, like when i try start mugging again i need time to get used to it, but in the end i just ended up boozing at hog's breath cafe and watching man u get owned by wharton. hog's breath not bad la, except they dont serve heineken like wtf....

theres F1 later, 2 ferrari's followed by 2 renaults in the first starting positions! how fun.

2006-08-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

prelims are suddenly not so fun anymore.

i had never thought that i would ever feel stressed out this year. or at least, not so soon. but last night, while mugging for physics, i had my first real taste of stress. that horrible, sick feeling you get when you're under too much pressure, when theres so much to do but so little time left to do it with. and you're so helpless because you cant do anything about it and no one can save you from this unbearable, pressing load. that feeling sucks. i remember towards the end of sec4, i felt like that every single day. shit, i hated it.

at least im glad the written papers are all over, just chem mcq left to mug for :)

tomorrow, im going to take the whole day off just to chill at home, i think i deserve it. i havent had proper, undisturbed sleep for weeks now. i really need this break, no matter how short it is.

now i know what the A levels are really like, and i used to think those suicide/drop out rates were ridiculous because of all the fun i was having in ac. hah

2006-08-21T11:17:00.000+08:00

and even when your hope is gone
move along, move along
just to make it through.

MUSTS

2006-08-17T19:42:00.000+08:00

tomorrow, i must have my coffee in the morning,
i must be alert.
i must not be over-confident,
nor too unsure of myself.
pray before the exam,
and again after.

i invested too much to screw up tomorrow, i must not

2006-08-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

haha sorry something happened in the previous post about the "grading system", it didnt come out as expected, but i editted it already so its fine now.

so the prelims have started, its horrible. i dont want to talk about it. i really dont understand why they make the prelim papers so bloody hard. i mean, since i did like 20 physics paper 1's, i personally know that you can score higher for the rj, hc, vj and nj papers than for the ac papers. how gay is that huh? and its not even like we do better than them for A levels.

yeah, i really hope i can get CEE un-moderated. i mean like i actually put in effort for these exams, i havent mugged for damn long, like since sec 4. so it would be nice to see some fruits during prelims, even if they arent like uber ripe yet. if you get what i mean. haha

2006-08-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

Mugging!

yesterday's mugging/coffee intoxication session was damn hardcore, after chem tuition in the morning we went to holland v starbucks where i drank a large brazillian cherrado or something. then we went for physics for another hour and a half, followed by more coffee at holland v coffee bean. so i drank about one litre of coffee altogether, mmmmmm ownage.

so the prelims are almost here, like the days left to prelims are less than the number of cups of coffee i have a day. everybody is proficient in at least one subject now, but for most of the people i know its like physics (because almost the entire level has physics tuition now). a lot of physics takers i know also screwed their chem revision big time. many conversations with many people tell me our timetable after prelims will consist of about 4hours of chem tutorials a day. haha.

so for the people who were slacking too much dont even know the A level grading system, i will sacrifice some of my important mathematical induction revision time to explain the system to you.

Grade (Mark Range)
A (Atrocious) 70<
B (Bad!) 65-70
C (Cannot make it) 60-65
D (Dazzling) 55-60
E (Excellent) 50-55
AO (Ah! Outstanding!) 45-50
F (Fantastic) 45>

hopefully, all of you will do (F)antastically well for your prelims! haha

2006-08-06T17:23:00.000+08:00

my head is saturated, i cant do anymore work, i cant even think straight now. physics is very taxing on the brain, especially dumb prelim papers with weird, complicated questions.

physics is kinda like love right? when u have have too little, you get owned. when u have too much, you still get owned. ahaha. ok la, this entire post is damn stupid, because i cant think at all, because of phyiscs...

2006-08-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

when i showed su my gp file that day, he made the astute observation that my gp grades are going down. well, i guess we can attribute that to the fact that i started mugging for other subjects so i have less time to think about like, general stuff (like you write about general stuff in general paper right). come to think of it, i do spend a lot of time thinking, i think thats because of my CI personality. haha. but anyways i got my latest assignment back today and its not so bad, i hope my marks are starting to climb again. but i also noticed the trend la, i usually get lower marks for the assignments in which i rant mindlessly.

i photocopied the ******* JC physics prelim paper from the library that day, i guess its a welcome escape from the hell that the RJ and HC papers we usually do are. like as a student sometimes i think its good to do some of these papers, at least its better for our morale than those other papers. but then again, if we're accustomed to difficult papers the A's will be a breeze. wow look, i examined both sides of the issue, its like the subconscious gp talent in me. ok whatever, haha. time to mug for stats test tmr.

2006-08-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

ahhh school is ending too soon! its ending too fast, gosh, theres still so many things i havent done, so much fun i havent had, so much work i havent done. i cant believe its gonna be over so soon.

today mrs chan was quite sad when she was talking to us about the newspaper article, i've havent really seen her that sad before. but ah well, i guess we just have to cheer her up by getting 3A's and above for 50% of the cohort or something.

then im like doing my dumb personal statement for my graduation cert now. i think its such a dumb idea, like how am expected to praise myself? and what a bad time to make us write this, prelims are in like 12 days and we still have to worry about this. i remember even pw stopped for awhile during promos last year.... ah ok no more ranting, im making seem like i have nothing better to do when actually i do, like tons of work, loads of prelim papers, truckloads of essays, bucketfulls of coffee.

speaking of coffee,
IM SO GLAD COFFEE EXISTS,
like i would just collapse in class without it. surviving on 4hours of sleep a night is no joke.

ok, im just so worried about my chem now. so worried

damn tired

2006-07-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

i dont know why, the weekends seem really short now. i woke up late on saturday so i ended up accidentaly ponning the physics mock exam with lihao to mug. oldham wing is like really quiet on saturday morning, very good to study, except it might get a bit hot if theres no wind.

later that day i had the worst tuition session ever. i wasnt prepared for physics of fluids at all since i didnt attend any lecture on it and was just damn lost throughout the lesson. then there was ds's party after that, socializing with his 50 poly friends was quite a failure, lol. but it was still quite fun la, we went to his clubhouse and played stupid games from 10 to midnight after his friends left.

people are all drinking stuff in the photos since i took them in the clubhouse where we went to buy drinks cause all there was at ds's party was 100plus which ran out pretty quickly.

sorry xing, your picture couldnt be uploaded for some reason, its corrupted cause you're too handsome.

so i when i slept at 2 last night, i set my alarm for 1030 cause i intended to do quite a lot of work today, but i just slept right through. only woke up at 1, 2 hours behind my revision schedule. sigh, at least i got some good rest so i can mug later tonight.

um, i like to eat yong tau foo? haha

law school

2006-07-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

the university fair on wednesday was pretty enlightening, mainly because at least 1 member of the acjc alumni studying and working in nus as professors in most of the popular courses came down to share their experiences with us. i discovered a few things that day:

1. its not going to be easy to get into law school
2. neither is it going to be hard if i posses the qualities they are looking for
3. i dont really know if i have the qualities they seem to value
4. if you graduate with third class honours from nus law fac you cant practice law in singapore
5. theres always business school

today when i told en hua that i wanted to go to law school the first thing he told me was that i was going to hell, "all lawyers go to hell" he said. at that moment guanyi was passing by and overheard our conversation, so he said something like "you know you need 3A's to get in right?" as if i couldnt get it. sigh, everyone thinks im not serious about my studies cause im goofing around all the time, but i really am, i just dont want to turn it into a dreadful, boring activity.

i dont think its hard to get 3A's, seeing that i have tuition for every subject now. furthermore, all kinds of random people get 3A's, its not really all that as exclusive and glorious as getting 7A's or something. but still, i realize i have to mug, very very hard.

so today i was walking with my classmates from the NL to the EL because our chem tutor told us that our class was at NL5 when it was actually at EL5. well, i havent been to the NL like this entire year, so i was telling dx, the NL is like some rural village, cut off from society, but then again there lies the allure of living in it. At that moment we saw wayzee using the grass patch next to the NL to go to the EL, so in the context of what i just told dx, it was pretty funny. he was like jungle bashing through from one rural village to the next. and i dont even think dx heard me, because all this while he was like lost in his thoughts or something. ah well, i realize that the entire paragraph doesnt even sound as vaguely funny as i make it out to be, you have to be in that situation to appreciate it.

24 more days

2006-07-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

Photos:

im so proud of this artistic shot i took today, cool eh? it was taken from the far end of buona vista mrt station facing biopolis, the mix of clouds and urban landscape is so, breathtaking. haha

random photo from chinese paintings in concourse

aerial view of smiley

ground view of smiley

ok you must forgive me, i mean like i know photo blogging is lame, but its so much easier to do especially since im so busy with exam prep..

but i like school more these days, revising isnt as tough as learning new stuff. actually, i cant believe im into my last semester of formal schooling. gosh, im gonna miss ac so much... but i sure of one thing, im gonna enjoy my school life while it lasts :)

hie its been a long time

2006-07-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

um after such a long break, it seems so abrupt to start blogging again like this, without so much as an attempt to even explain my absence. but who cares.

so like im testing my new phone camera on my blog. ok la no, actually i just want something to blog about.

last friday after half day school before whole evening dota!

starbucks

vic and lihao

clemens and my shoe

artistic shot of starbucks wall

writing on the wall

lol. ok, study hard peeps!!

$120 and counting

2006-06-15T17:48:00.000+08:00

education is not the filling of a pail, but the lighting of a fire - william butler yeats.

3 A'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO CZECH!

2006-06-13T02:12:00.000+08:00

woo hoo! world cup!!!

for those who dont know, my world cup revolves around this:

oh no i didnt really bet $100 on that oh-so-close england match, i put $50 and my mum put $50. we're like betting partners :) so i won $20 on england and 10mins ago i won another $33.50 from the $50 i put on Czech Republic!!great match, it really was. i think i'm a new fan of the czechs, they simple rock.

so like i discovered i only bet on alternate days, maybe cause on alternate days the matches are safer... im not even betting on brazil tmr cause i have a gut feeling of a draw. but thats just me, most people (i.e qing) are blowing their entire life savings on brazil tmr, all the best to them :)

so far i've made $50 in 3days, so doubling that i estimate about $100 per week. hopefully i can make $500 by the end of the world cup!! next match, spain versus ukraine!

2006-06-06T11:16:00.000+08:00

omg omg omg its the 2nd day of the 2nd week of the holidays and its 6/6/6 only 2 weeks and 5 days left to mug AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goal today: Finish food chem and quantum tys. and also score against qing's arsenal/england in fifa.

first week

2006-06-05T19:36:00.000+08:00

many photos

sean ng (wtf)

cool singers at chinese singer cafe or whatever its called

:)

:)

testimonial photo

:)

:)

so i was feeling quite sick and was gonna throw up and all that stuff because of something i drank or something so quincy gave me a lift home even though he would have to face a 2hour drive home from my house. thanks quincy!!

night driving. hoo!

i originally intended to post like, pics of acs idol up here too but i dont know why i cant upload them after i already put all these pics up. maybe theres a quota or something, or its just god's will that i finish the post here and do my quantum physics prelim questions. so look out for acs idol pics next!

CRAP. the formatting for the last picture is screwed. i dont know what i did. but the format always screws up once i put pics in. anyone who knows how to solve this problem? its pissing me off.. everytime i try and post pictures its like that

2006-05-31T19:37:00.000+08:00

life
so many things have happened.. i really wanted to blog about them but too many things have happened.. they seem to have happened so long ago (sorry for using "happen" so much la i cant blog when im playing dota). but im still quite motivated to blog. its like i havent blogged for so long, but i dont really have time, seeing that i've been out everyday since the start of holidays. gosh i really should get down to work, so far all i've done is 5hours of physics on monday. i think ill start some work tonight...

smo
smo today was ok lor... like everyone only did like 15 questions and i answered 20, although im quite sure most of them are wrong since its like, super hard. i think if i get 5 correct im happy already. in fact, i think if u get 5 correct u'll get bronze medal, hahaha.

omg sean ng is back from the states
so like if you've all been wondering why the weather is so bad lately and everything seems so dark and lethargic, dont worry, its just the usual signs of sean ng's return.. but then again im always happy to see my good old sec4 friends, i think we're the only sec4 class who still regularly keeps in touch lor! massive 4a3 reunion this holidays! all must come!

so left my cam with sean ng when i went out with him that day and forgot to take it back even though i met him yesterday.. sian, must remember to take it back from him tomorrow before i go for the class outing!!

um, maybe ill blog more tmr? lol. enjoy your hols and study hard friends!

2006-05-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

ahhhh im like not blogging at all anymore! too busy now, i cant wait for this term to end. but then again, i can (i think i just want bowling nationals to be over
, but its not like i hate bowling. i still love the sport, just that it feels really awkward to go to training but not train. when i recover ill train after A levels and at least make an impact in inter-club league since i can no longer do it in A div's)...... time flies too fast, i cant imagine that i only have 6 months left in ac. i wanna stay longer :(

um, i think ill blog on friday, about the class outing. yah

2006-04-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

theres some dumb b grade horror flick on channel 5 now. but i think its quite funny, like this guy falls into a hole in the ground and when he wakes up he's surrounded my corpses and the show gets even more stupid from there. luckily, i've stopped watching it. (but this would probably be a fun movie to watch a movie marathon cause its one of those dumb movie marathon movies)

so i did quite ok for my math test. but im sad, because i only did quite ok. nevermind, no one's gonna understand.

i really want my scholastic merit award, and im really busy this term, but i guess i've learnt how to handle it. i shouldnt spend my jc life waiting for shit to be over because its shit and i want to go over with it, jc life's too short for that. i want to enjoy every moment of it, so that when i look back ill know that i made the best of it and have nothing to regret.

then, im really looking forward to monday. sa1 and se1 with gary chan outing. hahahahahahahaha.

IPhO!!

2006-04-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

i went for the international physics olympiad astro night briefing with mr ho just now. firstly, i was very suprised by how little publicity had been put into the fact that we are hosting an international olympiad which will probably never come to singapore again in at least 50 years. so like for 10 days in july, the average iq of singapore will increase by 100 or something.

i like to see passionate people go about passionately doing whatever they have a passion for. not like the kind of "i need to work hard cause if not ill fail" passion, but the "omg i like doing physics i get turned on by it and stuff". i hope i find my passion soon. lol

so anyways, people who want to go for IPhO astronomy night come and find me ill try and ask if u can be put in last minute. its gonna be super fun cause its like 3pm on friday till 1am the next morning and most people will stay till 6am cause its impossible to go home at 1am and they are gonna turn off all the lights at the ntu campus and army camp around it throughout the night so no one who doesnt wanna get raped by a pack of wild dogs is gonna try walking the 1km journey out. the only downside of this is that its like on 14th july or something, so its like 3 weeks from prelims. but mr ho said "1 less day of mugging is not gonna make a difference".

ok, off to finish tutorial 32.

i really dont mean to be so cynical today

2006-04-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

bye bye ds. cya on 10 april, have a good mission trip in phillipines. god will use you to bring a blessing to the people in ulu-land. i will pray for you and your mission trip buddies that god will keep you safe and have a good trip. may god change your lives and the lives you touch through this journey. maybe i should go on a mission trip in december too, it might be refreshing from singapore. like i might actually meet sincere people in these rural villages, unlikes those in singapore.

i think chicken rice war is a nice show. i like these kind of shows where the loser gets the babe. but we all know that never happens in real life. social rejects and the dregs of society, no one cares about them or their existence. pierre png acted really well in that show, like he was speaking in shakespere language for 3/4 of the show too, that is really hard. zhihuan is right sometimes, its so sad, that nice guys finish last.

things to do in coming week:
1. read the tempest before i watch it
2. be nice to zhihuan
3. try and start studying chemistry

i think i can do it

2006-03-30T20:49:00.000+08:00

yay. things are getting better, i have gained some momentum in my mugging and can now solve most math TYS standard questions.

but then i can only do j2 work since my j1 works SUCKS and im so busy with j2 work that i cant begin my j1 revision and i would probably only be able to start j1 revision in june when its too late and then i wont be well prepared for prelims but why am i worrying about this terms have just ended shouldnt i give myself a break no i cant because so many of my classmates are mugging already i feel compelled to mug oh crap that means i dont have a break till 17nov but who cares i need to get my grades or get owned singapore is like that you make it or they break you wait wait why are there no periods in this paragraph i dont know either maybe im trying to turn all my expression errors in gp into just one big big one so that i wont get penalized so much haha thats not funny at all.

2006-03-28T17:22:00.000+08:00

oh no im sick again. this is the 2nd time in a month i've fallen ill. maybe my immune system is really that weak.. falling sick sucks, it feels so horrible.

so even though im not in school my friends have been updating me on my term exam results. i guess i did better than expected for math and gp. but im quite disappointed with my physics score. ohwell, at least i dont have a single F. i must still work harder in term 2 and 3 :)

ok, back to sleep. hopefully ill be well enough to go to school tomorrow

2006-03-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

on my way home today i saw an accident. it was damn horrible. you couldnt even tell what vehicles were involved in it till u looked closely. it was just a big mess of metal and glass. hope the drivers were ok, but the ambulance was still at the scene when my bus went pass, so the driver's injuries cant have been that bad. or maybe the ambulance driver just wasnt happy that he didnt get a pay raise or something... ok nevermind not funny to joke about these issues

in other matters:
zhihuan is a fucking hypocrite. please stop telling people how badly you're gonna fail and how your single digit mark will be the the cube root of theirs when you get fucking distinctions man. zhihuan has inspired me to mug, i shall attend more chem lectures from now on and beat him. but ponning chem lectures to eat prata with banana and honey is so much more fun lor. like seriously, i think eating prata is more constructive than attending chem. ohwells, i better learn to love the subject or ill never do well in it.

holiday

2006-03-20T16:01:00.000+08:00

Bowling camp (mon-wed)
well, bowling camp was actually great! i thought it would be really stoned for me cause i didnt know many bowlers while most of them knew each other already, but it wasnt that bad at all. i think we can attribute this to the fact that ac bowlers are generally nice and easy to get along with. hahah. and god also blessed me because he put me in the same room of keith, gaius and joel, cause like i already know keith and gaius.. and joel is so friendly anyways.

so all-in-all it was kinda like orientation! there were alot of team bonding games and only 2 hours of training. but i guess the camp was meant more for team bonding than skill training... ill always remember sin chew hor fun and playing asshole tai ti and drinking stupid concoctions and making augustin run into the golf course lake at 1am :))

when augustine ran to the pond kenneth followed him to video it or something but when augustine came back kenneth was missing then we were all like "omgwtf he went missing" for a moment. but later on we realized he just went to some other people's room for awhile.

on the last day and my only complete day in camp (cause i had to go back to school for SRS on tuesday), we had this amazing race. got grouped with augustin, joyce and meaghan. sigh, i told augustin that we should try out best to win it lor, but we spent too much time in occ poolside, so we were the last team...until we reached the war memorial. every group got stuck there because of some stupid clue which no one could solve. then after that like 12 of us got into meaghan's car to go to botanical gardens, it was so squeezy joel actually had to stand in the car, lol. so in the end we were tied last with like 3 other groups so it didnt matter.

actually, i felt that amazing race was more team breaking than bonding, but nevermind, i shall not speak of it. we were all damn screwed and tired out after that. but kenny, debby, clarence and marc really did a good job with the games in school. like there was this game where we have to get the whole team through a hula hoop which was raised like 1m up, juliana fell through the hoop her group had to carry her through and gaius just jumped right through it lol.

Doc's appointment (thurs)
the bone scan finally showed what was causing the pain. in medical terms i have greater trochanter bursitis of the left femoral shaft and the distal epiphysis of the left femur. in layman terms, im F*King screwed. my bowling career is shattered. this injury prevented me from training from november to march and now i have to lay off bowling till june. this means i wont be able to bowl A divs (actually i dont think i would have been more than a reserve even if i didnt get this diagnosis because not training from november to march screwed my bowling).

sigh, i dont know why and how i got this injury, but i know its messing up my life. hope i heal soon...

Mugging (fri-sun)
mugging was really bad. i couldnt concentrate. i was telling qing how dumb this was, at the start of the year i told myself ill mug damn hard for terms and get my AAA and then everything will be smooth sailing. then halfway through the term i realized i wasnt even doing work so i changed my target to ABC. now ill be happy if i can manage a CCC.

Physics (today)
oh it wasnt that bad after all. but i really dont know, i think i lost like 12 marks so far but i really wont know how i did till i get my results back. and my chem= confirm fail, i shouldnt have ponned all those lectures after all... im still debating whether i should just sacrifice chem and mug for math so i can get like.. C for it. gosh my life is sad, i shouldnt even be aiming for C's.

2006-03-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

ok bye people. im going to hell tomorrow. nah just kidding im going for bowling camp but i can tell its gonna be damn stoned cause i dont know that many bowlers. but ill make the best of it, cause i dont think im going to be in bowling for very long :(

i hope wednesday comes soon.

2006-03-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

i want to start this post with a prayer. DEAR GOD, I HOPE YOU LET MARCUS AND JARED BACK INTO ACJC, THEY HAVE NO CCA'S TO APPEAL IN WITH AND ARE JUST HOLDING ON TO THE FAITH THAT YOU HAVE TAUGHT US TO HAVE IN YOU. I AM SURE THEY WILL WORK HARD AND BRING GLORY TO YOUR NAME WHEN THEY COME BACK. AMEN

remember long ago i thought that friendster horoscopes were really accurate? now that i've like, started using friendster again...

Friendster Horoscope for March 6, 2006
The Bottom Line
You will stop being overwhelmed as soon as you trim back your jam-packed schedule.
In Detail
The urge to hibernate has hit all of us, but the way you're feeling now, you're not only in the mood to get away from the maddening crowd, you're also in desperate need of some quality time alone. In addition, it's just about time for you to start dishing out a few surprises in return -- the way others have been tossing them your way, that is. A day with the phone turned off just might do it.

gosh, it really is horribly accurate...

ACS BARKER FTW!!

2006-03-02T17:37:00.000+08:00

barker's playing ri on the acjc field now. leading 15-7 according to chang's sms match update to me.

i hope we win, barker FTW!

i can see clearly now

2006-03-01T19:26:00.000+08:00

1.yesterday when i reached home after physics prac i had a temperature of 39.4, so i was like omg i am so screwed. but luckily after 6 hours of sleep and 2 doses of panadol my temperature fell to 38.5. i've never had a 39.4 fever before. its so horrible, you cant even think straight, its like everytime i try and form a vaguely complete thought in my head it starts hurting real bad. i dont want to be sick again, stupid jill and andre, thanks for giving me your germs, i think i got a hybrid of both your germs lor....

2. Xavier's "im trying out being positive" attitude is so cool, i hope he stays like that forever.

3. Bone scan tomorrow, lihao told me they stick a needle in your hand and run radioactive fluid through it till it flows through your entire body so they can take the scan... and that you can feel the liquid flow through your body.PAIN.

4. Last founder's day celebrated as a student was great! after spending 113th to 118th founders day on parade i can finally enjoy it as a spectator. i kinda miss those good old parade days, but i bet ill hate em next year when i get into NS. it was good to see old faces like josh fong, jing yan, leng kian. so many scouts got distinctions

5. im almost sure i wanna retake chinese, just for the AO pass.

6. A level results: j3's did really well(gogo leonard chng!). i guess it was a good experience today, going to the hall to see the happy and sad faces, the tears in the eyes, the smiles on the faces. somehow i saw more tears, but it kinda made be think about whether i would be crying next year, and i think i would, if i carry on at this pace.

7. engineering quiz on saturday at NTU! im quite suprised that i made it into the 2nd round, but since i have i better make try my best and do well for it :)

opportunity cost

2006-02-25T18:27:00.000+08:00

yes, opportunity cost. i still remember what that means from my 1st 3 months econs education. so we can say that the opportunity cost of the worldview (or globalview, i forgot what its called) conference is my term exam grades. it would have been a really good experience had i gone for it. but oh well...

so after talking to lots of people on what i should do i concluded that i wasnt good enough to handle the revision and the commitment of the event at the same time. i gave up the opportunity of a lifetime, but if you know me well enough, theres nothing new about that. what is another opportunity given up when i have already messed up so much?

i better study for terms, or i will hate myself, i will turn into a zhihuan. i gave up the conference for terms, i must do well.

ok enough depressive ranting, i shall move on to how wonderful yesterday was. like after school i watched acs barker come back from 0-13 to beat some neighbourhood school quite badly. and after the game i went to the canteen where some classmates were talking about (lol, nevermind). shag shoot & marry sucks when you have 3 horrible people to choose from, like you'd wanna shoot all 3, but i guess if you were given people whom you distinctly know whether to shag shoot or marry then it wont be so fun anymore cause people can just guess who you'd choose.

and arts night was a blast! why doesnt the science council organise fun stuff like this? like all they do is peer tutoring, its boring and gay. oh but i shouldnt be saying that because i probably need the tutoring just to pass. nevermind, now that lihao and i are in science council we will revolutionize it and make it cool :) we will catalyze the irreversible 1-step self propogating reaction that will rock the science fac!!

like,

hahahahahahahahahahahah. study hard friends :)

******

2006-02-21T20:42:00.000+08:00

im sick of everything.

wtf is this
why am i here
what am i doing
where am i going
who is this
who am i
im confused
im sick
im sick
im sick.